silentsonata

this is my life

2008-10-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i last posted here, been over at another world (lj) for quite some time, 3 months? no particular reason to come back here, other than the sudden urge to do so, perhaps after reading past posts from here brought back so much memories which pulled me back.

for those out there who doesn't know: tomorrow's the last day of school! (people cheering, celebrating) Just like last year, the end of the year's school term seems so insignificant to many out there, well including me. It was not until a few days ago that i realised, this december holidays will be the last in my life. The year has passed so quickly that sometimes i do not know what i'm doing at all, there isn't much chance to allow my life to slow down and consolidate myself, by the time you get to do that everything's over already. it won't be long before i lose my life to mugging for A'levels, rot myself in NS before pondering what to study in university. This has been my life, full of uncertainty, full of panicking.

Well before I think about what's gonna happen then, I guess I need to finish my PW first >.<

status quo

2008-07-05T22:39:00.003+08:00

Eom, ILP, iodine clock.... the list just goes on, term 3 is really not going to be a fun one i presume. Perhaps i'm too used to having a long break after a major exam, after block tests i just fall right into holiday mood :D Got to start work really soon, hate to stay up late to do work xD

Happy Birthday Chris!! Went out last evening to celebrate chris' birthday, had dinner at seoul garden. It was 4 years since I ate seoul garden!! And probably the last time I will, not sure whether it's because of inflation or whatever reason, the price has shot up just like that of petrol prices since i last ate it!! Anw, had fun at seoul garden, Lennis and his craze over mussels, the girls trying to cook fried rice :D Went to the fountain outside taka to chill out after that, sang some songs that chris requested, before squezzing my way home on the packed-like-tuna bus home x\

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it's still the same. doing your best doesn't necessary gives you the rewards you deserve. doing your best does not always receive others' appreciation. i've given in everything, haven't i? i'm running out of gas, running out of energy, why did i choose this path in the first place?

will things ever change?

2008-07-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

I really can't shop x.x

School has officially reopened with the new timetable and i just can't get used to school, getting lethargic, zoning off in class. haax.

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still can't make it. it's still too far away. i've not done enough i guess. blocks results are horrendous, after mugging for so much. i'm just too incompetent, not worth a place around. hah, people messaging you telling you how relieved they are for scraping an A, when you just received your paper showing how far away you are from a S. getting a D in one of the history essays when the others are all getting A. felt pissed, yet i can't do much about it, it's my own fault isn't it? I've opened up such a wide gap for myself to close, freak what have i gotten myself into? i don't deserve it, i really don't...

it's gonna stay like this forever i think. it's painful. i don't really want to do this, but i guess this is the only way to solve the problem. i've fallen too deep. i hate it, i detest it, but i can't stop it, i just can't, there's really no way isn't it?

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it's gonna be another long day tml. i got to pick myself up, i got to, before i fall too deep again..

2008-07-01T21:40:00.002+08:00

Clay target shooting was.... okay, get to shoot more rounds that I expected, but most of the time was spent waiting and watching other people shoot. Well that's the result of choosing the sabbatical that ends the earliest >.< Didn't shot well though, guess I don't have the talent in it xD

1st of July. More than half a year has passed by, a quarter of jc life is gone, the end of my youth is nearing. Didn't realised it till I read a friend's blog, that the best part, the only part of our lives that we have so much freedom, haax, is about to be over. Another year and we'll be going for ns or uni or the girls, and all these moments will come to an end. Time flies... so fast that I can't grab hold of myself....

it's hard. it's painful. but i have to go on. i know i have to. but it just hurts...

Change

2008-06-29T20:08:00.003+08:00

A weekend of rest has been great. I feel really refreshed now and I'm really to start work again. Haax, there's a lot of things to be settled so I can't afford to slack any further, cca stuffs, schoolwork, the list of things to do is just never ending. College life x.x

I've decided on what to do, I'm gonna try it out. Change, that's the key. A chat with mum yesterday was great. I know what to do now. If things aren't going to change, I'm going to. I can do it :D

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Tag Replies

Jiajun: Haha thanks emo friend, I'm not emo! I was just thinking :D
Fern: yeah part of the problem is what you are thinking, but I guess I know what I'm gonna do already. Haha the hamtaro is CUTE :D

Innocent Dream

2008-06-28T23:40:00.002+08:00

First day after blocks felt weird, there's no urgency to mug, no rushing for time, no worrying for what kind of paper's gonna come out later. The effects of mugging too much I guess, I got nothing much to do the whole day, other than having exco meeting in the morning and having lunch at Ikea with Charlton, Fern and Steffi while searching for the wristbands. First time in my life after a major exam I don't feel like mugging, all I want is rest, allow myself to slow down. Life has been moving too fast for the past 1 month.

I realised I enjoy time alone, without the company of friends, just alone. Plugging in earphones, standing alone in the train, just thinking. I like that kind of loneliness, that kind of time where I can really think about myself, my life, especially when I'm feeling really down or something.

Saturdays are boring.

After pushing everything away during blocks period, they are coming back again, coming back to haunt me again. I knew this will happen, I knew it's inevitable, but I just can't stop it. Haax, it's just me isn't it? That innocent dream in me thinking that everything will fall into place, everything will turn out as I wish, everything will be perfect, just like any fairytale we have ever heard, but life is just not this case isn't it?

Why?

Post-Blocks

2008-06-27T22:19:00.003+08:00

Blocks are finally over, nothing much to say about it, just that block tests are really killer and all of the papers were tough, if not very tough for me, well maybe except the history paper today, which was quite expected. Haha, didn't regret all those mugging sessions during the holidays though, although I kinda gonna fail many of the papers, it helped me understand that I need to work a lot more harder to achieve better results (: Well, now that blocks are over, time for a period of rest before all those PW stuffs come rushing, and of course promos are in less than 3 months.

OAC outing today was kinda failed, after lunch most of us just went separate ways. Didn't join the usual gang to movie cos my budget is quite tight nowadays, ended up going bugis with shi huan. Haax, bought nothing after walking around for so long, went to NLB to read comics after that.
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Sometimes no matter how hard you try things just won't work, do they? I've been trying hard, thinking of ways to solve the problem, but it just keeps repeating itself again and again. Is there really no solution for this? Or is it my incompetency that led to this from happening? I don't want to see this carry on, but I just can't stop it... I just can't....

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Time to reply tags! Realised I missed out a few tags back (:

Bert: Bert!!! Sorry missed out your tag last time round! Welcome back! (though it's like super long le :D) Sorry I missed out on the outings, I will go next time :)
Joey: Yoz! How are you? Haha, life now is quite stressful and blocks were crappy :D
Jiajun: Haha, when I'm bored I'll just change :D

off to hell

2008-06-22T21:56:00.001+08:00

Andy just reminded me the reason that I'm fretting now is because blocks tml.

I'm gonna pass all my subjects! I hope. Haha, hope that the mugging will do me well in blocks, though blocks are just meant to fail us. Argh.

Econs tml, wish me luck...

Friday.... come quickly.....

2008-06-18T11:27:00.001+08:00

Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.

2008-06-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging much nowadays, have been real BUSY. Haax, i've been either going out with friends, go shopping with mum, if not staying at home to mug. Blocks really are the worst thing in college, first time that i'm actually studying during the june holidays. Great :(

Anyway, other than the mugging part, June holidays have been great! Haha, after bike hike last week, had a series of outings and shopping trips, which were basically great :D OAC session yesterday was quite okay, managed to do some pt and some discussion with regards to investiture, that chit chat session for 4 hrs at starbucks was quite crazy too.

11 days away from blocks. I'm so dead. I've no idea how i'm gonna finish all my revision in 11 days, haax, all those slacking for the past 3 weeks x.x

Screw blocks!!!! :(((

2008-06-02T10:35:00.003+08:00

Bike Hike 2008 was over! Glad that WHOA <34 made it through, though we may not be the fastest groups, we were certainly the most high groups :D Not gonna talk about the route of our hike though, if you wanna know just check out the batch blog :D. Haha my group was kinda unlucky throughout the whole bike hike, but we managed to pull through! Good job everyone :D

Next year will be our turn to organise the event, not sure how it will go about, but I'm sure it will be as good or even better than this year's! :DDD

June holidays have been great! I'm loving every second of it :)

Liann: Haha! Yeah I love the break! Been resting quite a bit, gotta start mugging soon :D

LiFern: Haha! Jetlag is crazy! How's life in US? Come back quickly T.T

2008-05-29T10:27:00.002+08:00

term paper finally completed, 2710 words. the feeling of rushing out your term paper in 1 week, the fear of not being able to complete it is bad, so i shall not resort to last min work again next time. i hope. :P

Holidays have been... quite different from the previous ones, this time round is no more training camps, no more slacking at home doing nothing. I've been going out quite often in the midst of rushing out my term paper, just going out with friends. Hah, i'm going out again later, gotta stop this soon and start mugging for blocks, only started a bit now xD

bike hike's this sat, really looking forward to it. Hah, not the first time I'm going night cycling, but 120km is certainly a new and crazy experience. Ooh, band concert this fri and angela zhang's concert on sunday, hah this weekend is really busy for me :)

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是我想太多了吗？。。。

2008-05-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

i wonder why i did certain things for.. things that i did out of my heart with the intention to help, only to be misunderstood for something else, and nothing i did was appreciated... did i do anything wrong when i'm trying to help? why don't i receive something i deserve in return, instead of being ignored and misunderstood?

i hope you understand, but will you even give me a chance?

maybe i'm just acting smart, trying to do things that i shouldn't even bother to do....

<3

2008-05-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

I <3 high school basketball team :) basically went back to school today for the charity 3v3 basketball tournament, teams from high school basketball team did well, my team won 1st while markus's team won 3rd. It's always fun being around those guys, memories from high school flooded back, those tiring training sessions, those intensive matches... we've all moved on, a couple of them continued on with college basketball, there are others who joined bowling, interact, guitar and others, well myself joined oac... no matter what, no matter where each of us go, I still <3 high school team. :)

I'm physically exhausted now, imagine playing around 10 matches in 3 hours under the hot sun >.<

Dinner after general meeting yesterday was great, spent some time at Prince talking random stuffs, after that went to high school terraces to slack. Dancing fac dances, blasting music, watching charlton entertain himself with iceman when nobody played with him, haha, these little things we do may seem insignificant, but i enjoy them :D it relieves those times spent with og5, those really great days. Hope to meet up with them soon during the holidays, it's been quite a while...

Term 2 has come to an end, June hols are finally here :)

。。。。

2008-05-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

the past week has been busy, finally taking a rest.. term 2 is coming to an end, it has been a long term hasn't it? From the end of YLTC, to YL night, to interviews, to elections, a lot has happened over the past term... glad to have finally settled down as a batch, ready to begin our term together, the road ahead is long, but I'm sure we can make it there together :)

i didn't go and watch the basketball finals this afternoon, i didn't want to get that sucky feeling again. i realised i miss trainings, i miss the running, i miss matches, i miss the court. haix, there's no more chance for that to happen again, i've made my decision and moved on.. all i need now is to go down to the court now once in a while, shoot a few hoops and i'll be contented, i hope...

holidays are coming, i'm really looking forward to it :) A period of mugging and rest. ironic :D

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累了，
吵闹的人群中隐藏着无比的孤胆，
把伤感，把疼痛藏在心底。
麻木的逞强，只希望能带来快乐，
却带给自己无尽的悲伤。
我累了。

give me a chance

2008-05-15T18:11:00.002+08:00

mood hasn't been good for the past few days... found myself staring into space quite often, haax...

went down to support volleyball finals today, that feeling came back again, the urge to stand on the court, the pride of wearing the school's jersey, the satisfaction of competing, they are all back... it has been almost a year since my basketball journey ended, yet that feeling still wouldn't go off. i remembered i once said i don't enjoy competing, i guess i was wrong after all. cheered with my heart out, cos i knew the volleyball girls need that, the kind of motivation you get when your school cheers for you is just incredible. trust me.

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just when i thought Myanmar almost broke my heart, China came in and smashed it.

i can't do anything but pray for the people in myanmar and szechuan. cities were destroyed. lives were taken. families were broken up. seeing the kids in myanmar losing their families just make my heart aches. looking at the destruction caused by the simple sliding of earth's plates, 14,866 dead and still counting.

it just adds on to my already bad mood.
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i wanna everything to start again. to restart. at least give me a chance to correct myself...

term 2

2008-05-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

term 2 is coming to an end, holidays are coming and you have no idea how relieved i am. honestly term 2s have been quite horrendous for me since sec 1, and the trend has continued into college. results are horrible, mood has been quite bad, money wised not very good either.

i'm not doing enough, am i? term 2 is the first time in my life that i really studied hard for my tests, and yet i received horrendous results... tests are over, but i still see people mugging their lives out, yet i am already in holiday mood and not doing my tutorials...

i must kick this habit and be more motivated, more committed

i MUST

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Live life with purpose and belief

where am i now? what's my purpose in life? what do i believe in?

i need to find them soon, to get back on track, to live life to the fullest

but how?

well start to listen attentively during lectures and do tutorials dummy (:

term 3 shall be a blast :D

Atlantis'08

2008-05-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

It's kinda late, but here's the photos from Atlantis'08!

Hamtaro!

Before the deadly chilli ramen xD

Aftermath: Constipated smiles xD

After conquering 40 storeys at Toa Payoh :DEsplanade :)

Atlantis'08, Acceleration Redefined...

Hamtaro rock on!!

time

2008-05-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

bus trips to school and back home are wonderful, plugging in earphones, watching cars zoom by, letting time pass slowly. life is moving on so fast for me, that bus trips are the only time where time really slows down and allow me to reflect, to think...

school life has finally cooled down from its initial hype, everyone in the school now has more or less settled into the environment and began life as normal. No more orientation, no more massive outings everyday, no more being fascinated by the campus, normalcy is back... but somehow, the more I get used to college life, the more I miss my high school days... hah, miss the days where we compete who reaches the bus stop earliest when the 1.30pm bell rings, the countless days staying back with the team training our hearts out for competition, the days we stayed back in class...

had a chat with eechu that day, realised how much life has changed for both of us, the once inseparable friends now each has our own lives, own schedule, own responsibility to out. looking around, we realised that we spend much lesser time with our closest pals back in high school. change is constant, i guess that's what happened to us, all of us have to move on with our lives. however, the connection between us all is never lost, the moment we get to meet up and chat, everything just rushes back into us, that's what true friends are for :)

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有时候很希望时间能停下

一切都过得太快了

我感受不到

人生的美好。。。

好想回到过去。。。
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tags
steffi: haha i guess you will wait until like 3 months later before u write another post :D
fern: stop sleeping at such unholy hours :D
alvyn: haha, i grow older le mah :) when are u reviving ur blog?
wh: yeah i understand:) thx
debbie: NIU ER ZI!!!
xZb: haha i just miss all those high school days x.x
evelyn: haha u never come online send me the songs T.T
bert: haha! how's china! fun?

life goes on

2008-05-02T14:20:00.000+08:00

Elections are over

Thank you everyone for giving me your trust and voting me as your chief instructor, I promise I'll do my best in the future and bring OAC to new heights!

Congrats to those who got the posts they wanted, hope you guys can put in your heart and effort into oac and have a great year!

To those who did not get the posts they wanted, I just wanna say don't give up! Treat it as doing the batch a big favour, for the betterment of the batch! Remember that no matter what, you all are always part of WHOA (:

Though elections are over, our journey has just began. The road ahead is long, there are bound to have many difficulties that the batch will have to face in the future. But fear not, as long as we are united as a batch, nothing can defeat us! Let us work hand in hand for the next 1 year plus!

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Mini gathering with the pri schl guys today. Felt great, it's been a long time since we last gathered and have fun tgt. I realised that I only enjoy playing Lan and mahjong with the guys :D Kaiting came over and crashed us for awhile, been a long time since i last saw her too. Came home quite late, to think i have a math assignment tmr. Heck.
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school tmr. Argh x.x

reality vs dreams

2008-04-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

reality smacked right into my face, life is just so unfair....

why?

acceleration redefined

2008-04-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

nothing is constant in this world, only change is constant.

4 months in college has made me realised a lot, it made me realised how far i've fallen behind in studies, how much i missed out in high school, but most importantly, how much everyone, everything around me, including myself, have changed.

college life may seem fun and exciting, but trust me, it is the most complex and complicated, so much that i've been struggling to find myself, struggling to define myself, struggling to survive in college.

fern's post is so classic that i must quote it

"People are getting into relationships, that's a change; people are getting more uptight over schoolwork now that we have everything piling up, that's a change; people are getting drained from whatever that's piling up till their drive is lost, that's a change; people are behaving differently now, and that's a change.

In this new environment, I have many changes to adapt to. And I realised how there're secrets everywhere, between him her you and me. Sometimes, I come to know what I shouldn't know, and it might be something that people don't know that I know. When people ask me about stuff they wish to know, I don't know what can be said and what can't. It's an environment where you need to be really cautious of what you say, what you do. Something you say wrongly might easily turn out to be what people call, a "backstab", or you might just turn into somebody who's known as a "bigmouth". Sometimes, it's just best to keep your lips sealed no matter how much people wish to fish some news out from you. You don't know who are the ones wearing a mask in front of you, and you don't know when you should take out this mask of yours. Life as a near-to-being-a-grown-up isn't that simple as I wished it was anymore. Where is the little child in us where we can just say what we want, know what we want to know, and do what we want to do without being talked about by people? "

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People have been putting on masks in front of others, including myself. It seems like an obligation, to show others what they want to see or expect of you, to impress others in college. But who are we actually? Why is there a need, an obligation, to follow this trend?
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"But then again, you're bound to have this group of closer friends whom you can share nearly anything under the sun with. And that's a feeling I love. No barriers, no guard, no reading-your-mind games. It's just saying what I want to, and that's a great avenue for us to vent whatever unhappiness we have. That's trust. Speaking of trust, it's probably something really amazing. There's mutual trust between really good friends, there's mutual trust between our families. What makes you think that you can trust this certain someone? Putting a trust in somebody requires some form of courage and risk, but it's a risk you know you're never going to lose out. For that, I'm really grateful to all those whom I have put my trust in, those I trust that you know how I feel, and that you're there to listen. " Fern

life may be unfair, but there's always a bright spark somewhere, something for you to rely on, something that helps to guide you out of the darkness. college has not killed me yet, cos i know there are people out there that i can rely on, that i can trust, that will support me.

acceleration redefined. I'm ready to go :)

thanks lots :)

move on

2008-04-28T07:14:00.000+08:00

Sundays are just wonderful, spent quality time with my family in the morning, before rushing back to complete my part on history presentation >.< Felt kind of guilty, realized that since the beginning of this year I've been spending much lesser time with them... I must do something about it, hmm...

Mayday's concert was quite good, it would have been great if I knew more of their songs ): Haha, it was quite retarted for 4 guys who didn't really know their songs to go and watch their concert, with shi huan playing my psp throughout, yurong stoning, rxian and i trying to be high. haha, who cares, the tickets are free anyway :D

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tomorrow is elections for oac. everything past by very quickly didn't it? guess many of us have already gotten over the results of peer evaluation, carrying on with life, preparing for elections. it's time to move on, move on with life, move on with our cca. let us all jiayou, the 26 of us, to make WHOA a success (:
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chem test tmr ):

catch up

2008-04-25T10:52:00.000+08:00

mood today was generally better, i guess i've learnt to accept the truth. there's no way back now, only to look forward and plan what to do ahead. i wish i can, but the truth really hurts. saw them today, didn't know what to say to them, what to tell them, all i could muster was just a simple nod or wave, nothing more. i know i should do more, but i just couldn't do it. argh.

school is getting increasingly repetitive, draggy and tougher. seem to be losing touch with a lot of things, falling behind further and further for my schoolwork, work seems to be piling up higher and higher each day. days seem to pass by so quickly that i realized, i'm already too far behind...

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I have to catch up

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....

2008-04-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

seeing the looks of them this morning just makes my heart feel so painful, so hurt. i know this was coming, i've tried to prepare myself for it, it just didn't work... those emotions just overwhelmed me... Whoa, 34th oac has split up, officially.

the rest of the day went by quickly, i wasn't pretty much myself for most part of the morning, staring into blank space, thinking about the rest. Images of yltc and yl night came flooding back, it hurts.

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well all that lasted till afternoon, when my usual high-when-emo came and overtook my emotions... and you shld roughly know what happened for the next part of the day.

gathering at kap wasn't really that successful, though it was quite fun. just love all these chatting sessions, allow me to understand more about some people (: everyone had fun i guess...
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不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。
人有悲欢离合，约有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

隐藏着的悲伤让人心疼
说不出的安慰让人烦恼
心好疼，好痛。。。

updates

2008-04-21T12:32:00.000+08:00

Weekends are just so great, spent the whole weekend letting my body recharge after a whole week of activities. The past few weekends were spent on yl night stuffs, lecture tests, so didn't really had time to let myself rest. Haha, i could have rested more, but my weekends nowadays are packed with activities :P

Went to schl yesterday morning to play basketball with some of the old bball mates. Felt really great touching and shooting a basketball, something that i haven't done in like 2 months? Hard to leave something that I've been playing since pri 3, basketball will remain as my fav sports forever :)

Sat night was spent at Mt Faber Safra, and wow I really didn't regret attending Hat That! Great job from our fac heads and fac comm for making the night so WOW! Had fun camwhoring with s65 ppl, playing balloons with the girls, whacking bryan's face with the balloon. Haha, we were the last class to leave the place, even after Mr Teo came chasing us out, we stayed outside to continue taking pictures. s65 rocks :)

Sunday was spent with family, celebrated daddy's birthday (1 day early though), those usual stuffs like marketing, shopping. Haha, it's been quite awhile since we did that, though it was quite tiring, i enjoyed it! :)

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Peer evaluation is tomorrow. The last day that WHOA stays as a batch. The 43 of us that went through YLTC will be split up, people will stay, people will leave. Looking back at the days of precamps, how a batch of around 50+ people join the camp, not knowing what's gonna happen to them; yltc'08, how the 43 of us survived the camp, forging bonds that will last; yl night 2008, how the 43 of us, each of differing personalities, worked tgt for such a magical night; interviews, how many of us just sticked around though our interviews have ended; to now peer evaluation, the last day we will be tgt... 2 months only... haix.

Nevertheless, the spirit of yltc shall live on... yes it will..

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Enough of emoing, good luck to everyone taking bio lecture test tmr! And of course, peer evaluation.

seventeen

2008-04-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday!

I'm seventeen!

Thanks to those who wish me happy bdae etc, I certainly had quite a good day today.

17.

Yl Night 2008

2008-04-15T12:55:00.000+08:00

YL Night 2008
13th April 2008, 6pm
(S)candles

After 3 weeks of preparation, hardwork, yl night concluded last night! It wasn't a major success due to all those decor problems, over running of programme etc... but we all had fun didn't we? The effort put in was amazing, and I'm glad that it was a great night for all of us!

Massive photo spam yesterday :)

These 3 weeks of preparation was indeed an experience of my life, first time that I took on a leadership role, first time that I organise an event. The whole process wasn't smooth, with its ups and downs, especially during the last week leading up to the event itself, but I'm glad that everything turned out well in the end :)

"And it's also a night when I realised how diverse of a batch we are, and that we're all special in some way or another." -Lifern

Totally agree with hamtaro's post. Now i understand what lokky said, that it is actually not yltc that bonded WE! so well, but it was yl night! Not just the night itself, the whole preparation of yl night that has made me understand the batch, understand individuals in the batch more :)

Yl night itself was quite scandalous, well due to our theme of course, with saboing all around through dedications. Haha, apaches performance was quite... retarded.. but we did a great job for last min work xD And thanks 34th, you all made the night a really special for me :)

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It's been only 2 months only, amazing to be part of WHOA, part of the 44 people who didn't know each other at first, but became such a close batch now.

I don't wanna the batch to split up

I don't want anyone to leave

I don't wanna face reality

Thunder

2008-04-04T12:56:00.000+08:00

"Leave no regrets in Jc. Yes, I've made too many regrets, too many mistakes in my sec school life. I don't want this to happen anymore and will do my best in everything."

That was my new year's resolution, my utmost promise and hope to myself. Ironically, it was the first thing that I did not achieve, everything I do in jc now seems so wrong >.<

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Anw, happy birthday li ann!
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Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

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Nice song that I only heard today X.X

Elections

2008-04-03T13:09:00.000+08:00

100+ candidates. 40+ from each faculty. 10 places for each faculty. How cruel was that?

Council elections are officially over, there were plenty of surprises in the results though, many surprising inclusion into the council. Guess that's how elections work, popularity often win over capability. Congrats to those I know who got in, mainly: victor, sherwyn, hoxy, ivan, sheila, howard, qihan, yehui, john, lijie,wenbo. All the best in your journey ahead, and better plan good stuffs for us :D

OAC elections coming right after yl night, I can't imagine what will happen. If running for council, such a short period of time and commitment, can make people so emo and unhappy when they did not get in or their peers didn't, what about OAC? We, the 44 members of the 34th batch, had gone through thick and thin, what will happen when some of us, or even ourselves, have to leave? I can't imagine.

School has been >.< 4 months into college and I still haven't gotten used to the lecture based system. Falling asleep during lectures is now a normal thing, falling asleep during tutorials (econs) is new. Today is quite a fruitful day, the day started out as usual, og bench, going for assembly almost late, chatting with bryan about soccer. Was quite happy and high as usual, the mood lasted all the way till mid afternoon, which I spent teasing yurong and wandering the school with him, disturbing random ppl around and of course, Li Fern the hamtaro. Anw, we were all so stressed up, so Lifern, calean, yurong and I went island creamery to relax. Haha, calean saw some friends and ended up chatting with them, so left the 3 of us there X.X It's very cool though, before just now, the 3 of us have never had a proper, full conversation together. We talked about unhappy stuffs from school, basically had an emo session. Great to see the previously emo lifern brightening up slightly, also yurong speaking up more about his feelings too. Sometimes isn't it great to just sit down and have a chat with a bunch of friends?

Og5 and yltc, the only 2 decisions that I did not regret making this year. Og5, my first love in college, it's amazing how you guys can still brighten up my day though it has been already 3 months. 3 months!! How fast time flies? It doesn't matter if outings now are only once per month.. it doesn't matter if we couldn't meet up everyday.. All it takes is just seeing you guys, a smile, a chat, is enough :) Yltc'08, something I'll never ever forget in my life. There's nothing much I need to say, but you people from WHOA! are just great :D Jiayou for yl night!

Pretty pathetic though, almost everything I did was a major mistake. 4 months into 2008 and what have i achieved?

好想，好想，回到过去。。。

Li Fern: HELLO EMO CLUB MEMBER! Haha, emoing together rocks! :D
Eileen: Lol, we are just too enthu in both OAC and og :D
Jiajun: Haha! My comp lagged like siao lah! 15 people in the convo? imba
Charmaine: Ya! We HAVE to meet up sometime! June!!

mass convo

2008-04-01T14:51:00.000+08:00

LOL! WHOA MASS CONVO :D

School

2008-04-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

Wee, it's been a long time since i blogged? Haha, a lot of things have been happening, all those council election campaign stuffs, school work, og outing (xD), yl night preparation :D So basically it has been a crazy week or so for me :D

Kbox was FUNN :D Haha we should seriously go again! Uber fun when everyone starts to zi high over a song, or trying to sing songs that no one knows how to sing XD

Good luck to those running for council, especially those from 34th. Jiayou!!! Tmr is judgment day le!! :D

:)

2008-03-25T10:45:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling much better now :) Thx everyone for the encouragement :)

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Just returned home from school not long ago, had a VERY unproductive logs comm meeting just now. All charlton and shi huan's fault. Bleah.

School is BORING! Feel like sleeping in all the lectures >.<

Ok that was quite random :P

alone

2008-03-23T14:12:00.000+08:00

I feel stupid. Always making the wrong decisions over and over again, only to regret over and over again.

What a failure I am.

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Thanks to a friend I'm feeling much better now (those stuffs on top was written 2 hrs ago)

Didn't know where that sudden emoness came about

But now I know what I wanna do

There's nothing to lose

I'm just gonna zham all the way

Yeah, zham :D

pictures...

2008-03-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

Spent most of the evening uploading yl pics, if u guys wanna see more, just go my photo album. Currently 185 pictures out of 600+ uploaded :D shutterfly is seriously slow ...

OG 5 outing next wednesday is finally confirmed! Will be going kbox with those willing ones :), followed by usual outing stuffs :) The past month has been filled with OAC, OAC and OAC, so time with OG 5 has been limited to those morning gatherings only, so.... I'M EXCITED :)

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I need to get back on track, I've been either too busy or slacking too much these past month, things are slowly getting out of hand now. Really need to sit down and start planning again, the next month will be hell for me if I don't prepare.

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Tmr will be a fun day :)

pre-yl nite

2008-03-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

Preparation for yl night has started, pretty efficient aren't we? For some funny unknown reasons, I'm the overall i/c. Haha bet u guys out there will be thinking, "HUH! ZR OI/C??". haha yeah, i think so too.
Hope the whole event will become a success, a great finale to the batch of 43 ppl ):

Haha, days in school have been lightened up by ppl from WhoA. Singing birthday song in the middle of the Central Plaza after flag raising, zi highing with batchmates after school, mass gathering infront of fish tank to discuss yl night... all of them have been WOW! Never had that kind of feeling since OG5, and having it come back was certainly great!

From Eileen's (Instructor yuling) blog:
"43 survived the 34th YLTC. I don't know how many will remain in OAC. But I pray that they'll never forget the dorm checks, the PT, the rollcalls and the MROC session. There are many camps in the world, but only one YLTC. (: The magic has just begun. Bonded by blood, sweat and tears. Strive on 34th."

That pretty much sums up my feelings now. I dunno what will happen after yl night, I dunno who will stay, I dunno who will leave, all i want now is to work tgt as a batch, to make yl night as magical as possible, just like the magical bonds we all share now..

tag replies

2008-03-19T12:33:00.000+08:00

I realised that I've been so distracted by yltc that I forgotten to reply to tags :D

jiamin: stalking our blogs?? for wad??? :D Haha yes we are all very lovely... and WEIRD :DD Shi Bao the perfect example :D Oh QM ROCKS!!
Steffi: Steffi!!! Your father was from HC OAC too!!! Haha, after yltc whenever I see oac ppl, my mood will just brighten up itself. WOAH 4eva!
Jiajun: Yeah jiajun! We rocked didn't we?
Chipmunk: Haha but CI very tiring leh, shld i run or not??
Sabrina: YES SABRINA! I'M ALIVE AND KICKING :D
Charmaine: Meet up! Plan a time :D

It's amazing how the memories of yltc'08 are still rushing back into me even though it's already 4 days since the end of camp. The topic for everyday's discussion has been yltc, yltc and more yltc. I guess it's the same for most of the trainees bah...

It's even more amazing that Steffi's father was the member of Hwachong OAC too! I guess it's one of the first few batches in our school, but seems that Steffi has inherited her dad's genes of OAC bah :D

Term 2 is kind of crazy, even though it's just like the 2nd day today. Work, assignment, work, everything is piling up. PW up next, tgt with yl nite to settle. Nvm shall pia more, from now on it's just OAC and mug all the way :DD

post-camp

2008-03-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

Yltc'08 is over and WhoA! has made it through tgt!! :)
Apaches won the BEST GROUP! Yeah Apa, we did it! Although we didn't expect to win, I'm sure we deserved it! The way we zi high during land ex, singing random songs to entertain ourselves and gis :) The way we crash cherokees and comanches games during rock climbing, zheng xian the spiderman :) The way valerie tried to whack down the speed boat during sea ex :) Also many other stupid things we did tgt, I will definitely remember all of them, it's everyone of us, every single one of us that helped Apa evolved from a quiet, lack of response group to eventually the best group out of Yltc'08. Cheers APA!

WhoA! The 34th batch of HC OAC! I'm glad we made it thrgh! The past 5 days went by in a flash, and I've went thrgh nothing I had ever in my life. Those sessions of MROC (I know our physical sux, but we all did our best didnt we?), the imba dorm checks, the roll-calls had made many of us wanting to give up, but we pulled thrgh!

WhoA! guys! It had been a crazy, tiring, yet wonderful 5 days with you all! Who will forget everyone of us taking off their shirts trying to dry the floor, holding inclined pull-up position for 10 whole minutes, pumping and pumping as if there's no tmr, rocking the whole school with our ultra loud cheers and songs, we guys definitely rocked!

WhoA! girls! You girls were fantastic! Coming to our aid during crazy pull-up, always there to ensure we guys do not do stupid things, pulling thrgh with the guys during MROC, way pass many of ur own physical abilities, I'm really grateful :)

5 days may be short, 5 days may be little, but it was enough to bond the whole batch tgt! Though the road ahead for WhoA! is still long, but I'm sure that our spirit will ensure that everyone will come out a proud member of WhoA!

Pre-camp night

2008-03-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Finally finished packing! Won't be around from mon to fri due to YLTC, so having last minute post now :D

Can't believe I'm missing kayaking for the camp. WHY KAYAKING! That's like the best part of the camp and I'm gonna miss it due to make up titration practical >.< And I'll be the only one in WHOA! that needs to take retest myself. Yeah. Oh regarding WHOA!, it's our batch name! The 34th OAC! We're gonna go thrgh 5 days of madness and hell tgt, so really hope that the whole batch can bond tgt and survive thrgh it. We can do it!!

Charmaine: Haha, march holidays cannot! Sorry >.<
Shi Huan: I'm not emoing anymore le lah! YLTC is coming!!!
eld: Yoz eldwin!
Evelyn: Haha, no prob! See u on 29th!
Bert: Haha, I like this layout more leh, neater :) Yeah emo cow :D
Seowyee: THANKS!!

Gonna hug my bed tonight. Can't believe I'm gonna be away from it for 5 days :( Haha, till fri, see you guys! I'm gonna have the time of my life! (I hope so)

worthy?

2008-03-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

Term 1 has ended without me noticing, the beginning of college life has been more or less a mixture of heaven and hell for me, the later parts being really bad.

Looking at the faces of the seniors coming back to collect their A' level results today, I got a sudden surge of emotions going through me. Till now, I still cannot picture myself collecting my A' level results, I still feel that I'm not worthy to be in this school, not worthy of being in such a wonderful class, not worthy of being around in this world. That kind of feeling is horrible.

YLTC is coming in 2 days and I'm having that kind of pre-camp sian syndrome again.

I'm tired....

door

2008-03-03T12:45:00.000+08:00

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.” --- Alexander Graham

I'm a victim of the above sentence, very often too, I guess I've never tried to enter or even see the new door opened for me, till now. I find myself repeatedly trying to open that closed door, although I long knew that it will never open for me again.

I really want to open it.

How i wish that Earth will spin backwards, bringing me back to the times before the mistakes occured, back to the times where fun was the only thing in the world, back to the time before everything happened.

I know I can't.

I'll have to walk on, I have a destiny to fulfil, a fate to decide, a road to follow.

Sorry, I'm just really emo for the past few days.

og...5...

2008-03-01T15:01:00.000+08:00

Og dinner! Fun Fun FUN!!! Haha, just returned home from og dinner, it was great as usual! Although this time not many ppl could make it, we still had a great time! Playing frisbee in the central plaza in the dark is cool, playing polar bear (as usual :)), singing college songs, GREAT!

It's late now, tmr still got OAC pre-camp, will blog more next time :D

Rewind

2008-02-28T12:56:00.000+08:00

o2 with s65 was fun, but it will never as great as og5... oh those days...

O2 and POP was generally quite fun, with Ares winning the fac dance competition the main highlight. It feels weird wearing artemis fac shirt, so I changed into Ares fac shirt and danced along with the Aresians :D It felt great :D Ares deserved the win, definitely, although I liked Apollo's dance a lot too, but Ares just have that kind of spirit that no other facs have..

New timetable out, it seriously is bad :(

I've sort of falling into the emo-mood that haunted me for the last part of January again, well, due to many issues :( Standing alone near the flagpoles along the railings, allowing the wind to blow against myself certainly felt great. All the sorrows, all the emotions were being blown away, well, until ziran came over with his guitar and disturbed that moment. Shall do that more often from now on, I realised that I'm having quite some problems with myself, my own emotions. Gotta keep track of them before it goes out of hand.

OG outing coming soon! This friday! It's been a long time since we last go out together, the last one was a bang, so I hope this coming one will be a bang too :) School has been really busy for everyone of us, so let us take this chance to enjoy ourselves and forget all the work! Well, just for that moment :)

ILP

2008-02-25T08:46:00.000+08:00

6a'03 gathering at zls' house during cny :)

Lots of familiar faces were not there, but some unexpected faces turned up. Haha, really happy to see them, just can't believe that 5 years have passed since I graduated from cckps.

ILP is sucking my life away.

Anw O2 is tmr! Saw the 2nd intakers around in school, they just don't have that kind of enthusiam that OG 5 had. OG 5! The ultimate OG! Long time since we had an outing, I want outing!!!

O2 tmr will be with s65 peeps, really worried that I will not fit into the class. Yes, they are friendly, but they have already built such a strong bond tgt that I fear I will just disrupt it.

bert: Haha bert, thanks!

jiayun: yeah jiayun i know its boring... but schoolworks are always boring..

qiuting: haha! thanks for being such a nice classmate for 1 mth plus! i'll always pop by! Treat u to potatoes some other time! :D

joey: ah ma! long time no see! So u've decided to go jc? Good luck and all the best!! I want my present :D

Back to ILP now ):

2008-02-22T14:53:00.000+08:00

Student: CHONG ZHEN RUI
Class: 08S65
Current Subjects Taken:
General Paper H1, Mathematics H2, Chemistry H2, Economics H2, History H2, Project Work H1

Wish me good luck :D

whole new chapter

2008-02-20T10:54:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so sleepy now, but it's just 6.40pm. Argh.

Anyway, today is a crazily happy day! 2.4km timing was 12:44 min, so that's a D i think, and due to the fact it was ran with 2 very painful thighs (I'll tell u why later), it's pretty much a surprise :D Thought I will fail for sure with that muscleache, but nonetheless passed it :D

The biggest news today was that my appeal for 4H2 is SUCCESSFUL! :D Received a call from the office at around 2pm, was shocked to know that I got the 4H2, furthermore I get to change to the science stream! Oh another good news is that the whole OG5 is staying in Hwachong! Every non-ip peeps are posted in hwachong!

Yltc pre-camp was yesterday, hmm, what should I say... It is indeed a new experiece... According to friends, it is very UG like, with strict rules and punishments, plus PTs and commands, well it seems like prelude to NS is here. :D. I know NS is gonna be 10 times or even harder, but it's good preparation lah. Our friendly seniors will turn into monsters for the next few weeks until Yltc ends, so I'm in for something :D

I guess this week will be my last with 08A12 bah... Remember how I said I hate my class at the beginning of the year? Well, that feeling is gone now, I'm pretty much alright with the class now. Who knows if I continue to stay in the class I will grow to love it? But I'm moving on, to a new class, new friends, new subjects, so I'm just like a 2nd intake student into HC bah. 08A12 will be very different after 2nd intake, with many people leaving, many people joining. All the best for those staying in 08A12, I'm sure you guys will do great :D Well, for those like me leaving the class, all the best in your ventures in the new subjects you all are taking :D. I'm sorry for being quite anti-social sometimes, I didn't want to feel too emo when I leave the class. I guess I've done it?

PT yesterday, 2.4 today has more or less drained me out. Haha that's what happens when you don't go for basketball training for a year :D Gonna train harder on my own now, pull-ups, running... whatever sport lah. Oh PT again tmr. I'm starting to love YLTC. Yeah right...

Tag Replies

Bert: Haha, can't get into the team lah... don't wanna waste time... haha give u chance next year, if I there you don't have chance :D

saturday

2008-02-17T02:49:00.000+08:00

I realised that I'm keeping myself so busy even my weekends are packed :D

Anyway, it has been a flash and 7 weeks of school has gone by already... JAE posting results will be out on tues, subject combination will be followed by quickly, and JC life will more or less start to settle down... Serious stuffs come after that, I've got lots and lots to catch up no matter what combination I'm allocated to, who asked me to make such a big mistake when i chose my subject back in dec?

Haha Asterix from OH!!! Going to ubin again from 10th March to 14th March! It will be YLTC, which stands for Youth Leadership Training Camp, and after that, I'll be an official member of OAC! Made up my mind to join this, cos I'm sure I cannot cope with council, and as if I'll be voted in.

Tag Replies

Charmaine: HAHA! Charmaine u tag so much how i reply! Yea meet up for NEW YORK soon!!!

Presents, People, Presents

2008-02-15T13:17:00.000+08:00

Valentines' Day in Hwa Chong is a whole new experience. Presents, people, presents and more people running around the school, the whole school was quite chaotic :D

Thank you everyone who has given something during this special day! Sorry I didnt prepare much this year :( But i promise I will next year! Big thanks to my angel - Ying Peng, and my mortal - Mei Xuan, for giving me such wonderful gifts :) OG 5 peeps too! Luv ya gifts!

No dates for me! Actually have, with my history notes, but I decided to pang seh it since it's way to boring. Haha, what can you expect from SEA history?

Tmr's a friday, and I don't really enjoy it. Argh.

V Day

2008-02-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

今年情人节特别热闹，特别有气氛，

心里却感得很寂寞，很空虚。

哈，不知道为何每次心情很糟时都爱用中文写日记。

我不知道。

什么都不知道。

2008-02-13T14:12:00.000+08:00

o2 is coming... but too bad... o1 owns...

o1
o1
o1
o1

2008-02-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

Cny holidays almost over! Back to serious work!

Spent the entire out with my family, going from places to places around Singapore, from CCK all the way to Changi :) It's been quite sometime since we last spent so much time together, since dad had been busy for many weeks prior to cny, and I really like these times :) Well, 10 years later my sisters would have been married and settled, and I will be busy with career too I guess, so I'll have to treasure these times with my family...

I've told myself tomorrow will be a new beginning! Confirmation for subject combination will come out soon, 2nd intake will also be here soon, so everything will restart I guess. Wee, the months to come will be very busy, with change of combi, class, YLTC in march, outings, tests blah blah coming up...

Read Alvin's recent post and felt really touched, someone feeling exactly the same as me...
"Who cares if we can't remember half the lyrics and were desperately humming the tune? Where else can you meet such a naish and bonded bunch of people from such diverse backgrounds. We just had a couple of weeks together and we will be friends for life (or as long as we can) Who cares if people say OGs get split up eventually? I'm gonna cherish every moment we still have instead of being pessimistic. OG 5!"

OG 5's spirit shall live on forever!!!

2008-02-10T15:16:00.000+08:00

Holidays fly really quickly, don't they?

The past 3 days have been kinda crazy, flying all over Singapore to visit relatives. I guess CNY always help me to polish my stoning skills, since I usually just sit in one corner stoning hoping for time to fly as fast as a F-16.

The only downside of this year's cny is that many relatives couldn't go out to visit, due to family members passing away (tradition), which means less visits, less money, less enjoyment. The usual noisy children were not there, giving me a sense of relief, but at the same time, made me felt that something is lost. This year's cny has been awkardly quiet, till now I still don't feel the festive mood.

I've been thinking.

Thinking of my future, my present, my past.

I realised that I've never been successful in anything, nothing at all. I've never attempted anything, prefering to stay in one corner and be an invisible person, hoping that the world will never realise my existence. People shine in council, shine in cca, shine in school work. I prefered to be average in everything, not even trying out for council. What was I doing? I've no idea. I'm a failure.

Well, life moves on. I'm facing troubles, obstacles again I guess. I'm never gonna avoid them. Let's just hope that everything turns out fine after 2 years....

Never Forget

2008-02-07T08:02:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is tmr! Just came home from school today, school is flooded with Ares colours :D Not sure how much longer I'm staying as an Aresian, have to really treasure the times as one. Chinese New Year celebration today was.... er... quite boring I think, other than the Street Market, there wasn't anything interesting at all. Well, maybe I slacked around too mcuh to realise it.

Yesterday was OG "Reunion Dinner", went to Pizza Hut for dinner, played stupid but ultra fun games :D After which went back to school at 9pm to play polar bear in front of Tan Kah Kee Statue :D

It always amazes me how such a simple thing like OG outing is able to light up my whole day, just like yesterday. I was in a hyper mood right in the morning, all the way till the outing was over.

Towards the end of the outing however, I turned quite emo I guess. Walking slowly behind the group, I was thinking how long will these friendships last? 10 years down the road will we ever get to meet one another? Will things ever be the same? Will we still be friends forever? The lyrics of "Never Forget" totally describes my feelings now and I dread the day that we'll graduate from college :(

Happy Chinese New Year :)

Tag Replies

Bert & Char: U 2 are crazy :D

Joey: Xie Xie ni! U must jiayou too!!

Calean: Ni Hao! Tag more lah :D

friends

2008-02-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

Briefing on Post-JAE Subject Combination Registration for C1 --- 1st Feb

Oh my gosh, I've not made the decision yet! Why so fast!

Well, a month has passed since school reopen, I will like to say I've experience ALOT during this 1 month. I have said many many times, the first 5 days of orientation have been the best out of the whole month :D Well, if you have been following my blog, days after that didn't turn out very well till now, well tomorrow is the day I've waiting for for quite sometime, but as it draws closer, I'm feeling worse. Perhaps that I thinking too much again? Haix.

I happened to hop onto a friend's blog and something he posted made me think... a lot. This month, or perhaps the last 16 years of my life, I've met countless friends, but do I have a real friend? Do I have a best friend? A friend that will never forget you after we graduate, a friend that will last a lifetime?

I've suddenly gain this determination in fulfilling some goals, such determination that I've never felt before. I shall achieve it, I shall not fail.

the moments of my life

2008-01-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

How i wish i can go back to those moments of my life...

again

2008-01-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought I got over the issue, I'm in another dilemma. Just checked university admission criteria and realised that most courses requires TWO sciences. Just when I almost made the decision. Nice one :(

School tomorrow. I need help :D

finalised

2008-01-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

I've made the final decision, so all that is left is for the window to open again for me to choose. I'm so relieved, so happy, so... that feeling is just so great. Well, I've got to start revising soon, I think I forgotten everything I learnt in sec school. :P

Literature outing was kinda stupid, was told the wrong location, so went to Arts Museum instead of Arts House. Missed the whole thing by the time I reached there, so ended up slacking around with some peeps from my class who went to the wrong place too :P

Ok, next week I'll probably die of stress. I've got to do econs proj, study hist test, prepare for math test, go for 2 OAC pre-camp and the hike, revise chemistry. GG.

Tag Replies

Yanne: Hey! How's school? Haven't been seeing you around school leh..

Xian: Haha, I'm not emoing anymore le. Thanks :D

Bert: Haha, you must. Sec 4 life rocks.

JD: haha, music is gone.... :D

hopeful

2008-01-26T14:01:00.000+08:00

I never realised how lucky we (IP students) are until yesterday, after seeing non-ip students rejoicing over their successful entry to hci or crying out badly after they failed to make it. I didn't have to worry at all, as using a grade that can enter one into one of the worse colleges in Singapore, I could enter the best in the country. Life is never fair isn't it?

Received the results of the last paper of my secondary school life, Higher Chinese. It was a bright ending indeed, as I scored an A1 for it. I was no doubt pleased with my score, but wasn't that happy as I thought I should be.

After receiving our results, around half of 4L'07 went for a walk around the school, looking for our ex-teachers for chats and occasional hugs. Yes, college life may be exciting, but high school life will always be part of my memories. Those successes, those tears, those failures and all the memories are too good to be forgotten, too significant in my life. I miss high school. Went for lunch at high school canteen with 4L'07, for the first time for 3 months I think. Chats, chats and more chats. Went separate ways after that, I guess the next time we get to do that again will be months away, or maybe even years, or never again.

I think the next 2 weeks will be my last as an arts student. I've made the decision to switch to the science course, most probably a hybrid combination of HistChemEconsMath. Biology is a possibility, so I still need some more consideration. So.... Science.... here I come!

turning point

2008-01-22T14:24:00.000+08:00

我人生的转折点想必就快到了吧，O’水准成绩将在星期四放榜，到时候我就差不多要做出我人生最大，最重要的决定了。我很害怕，很忧郁，很慌张，很彷徨，走错一步将带来一生的遗憾，走对了，当然是好的。

或许是选科目的压力吧，周围的吵闹，喧哗都吵不到我。。。是我想太多了吗？答案会不会在我的眼前，但我却不知道呢？这几周想的事大概比我一生中想得多了吧，让我变得十分消沉，开心的珍瑞到哪了？

星期五应该会是一个十分悲哀的时候吧！希望所有的朋友都能留下，加油！！！

it begins...

2008-01-21T10:58:00.000+08:00

It has been a long weekend for me, very restless but tiring. I've been thinking so much, so much that I'm got a bad headache. Anyway, those thoughts in my mind are clearer now, so the level of "emo-ness" in me has dropped a little :D

I guess the only change in my subject combination would be to drop literature for china studies, if not to PCME. Yes I love bio, but I don't think I want to take the risk. Risk as in failing to promote, or fail A Levels. However, the opportunity cost will be that I give up my passion probably for life. Bleah, too much econs :P Econs assignment is like next friday? It's only 4 weeks into school! Haix..

I'm not really looking forward to school, my emo mood will most likely return again. Never, life continues, so I can't lag behind just because of emo-ness. I will triumph!!! :D

黑暗的人生常常让人放弃，让人绝望，但是只要抬头，永不放弃，一定能走到光明的。

Tag Replies

Joey: AH HA! You took budget airline too! Was it nice? :P

Bert: Your joke was super cold lah...

Charmaine: Haha thx kong long! I'm feeling better! :DD

P.S Anyway, my friend Shi Huan aka Chipmunk wants publicity :D So I'm here to promote his super chipmunk voice :D If anyone of you people out there love chipmunks so much, you can contact Shi Huan for live demo :D

take flight

2008-01-20T02:53:00.000+08:00

Things are never in our control, are they? A person may be enjoying the time of his life at one moment, only to face total depression at the next moment. But one can keep hoping, as light always come after darkness. I'm treating it as a test, a test of my confidence, a test of my courage, a test of my will. Darkness almost defeat me, but I'll not let it happen again, I'll show that I can conquer it.

3 weeks have gone by now, yesterday's release of the official timetable meant that the honeymoon period has now gone by and it's time to get ready for serious work coming ahead. The last 3 weeks definitely changed me, made me experience a lot of emotional changes, learnt many things, made me think a lot. My life seems to have taken a U-turn, I'm ready for a restart. A restart to amend my past mistakes and as someone I'm very grateful to mentioned, to take THE step forward. Yes, I will.

Tag Replies

Charmaine + Bert + Pingshun: Welcome to the new msn :)

Unfair

2008-01-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

人生是不公平的。

难道真的是我的自酌虐？

我该怎么办才好？

Restart

2008-01-16T13:22:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking a lot, realizing a lot of things, which has resulted in my much improved mood for today. Life is not just about the present, it also includes the future! I shall not dwell too much on the unhappiness of the present, but look forward to the future that I have.

I've almost made my mind on what subjects to change after the 2nd intake and once that is over, I guess the burden on my shoulders will be gone and I can return to being a happy person again :D.

OG 5 outing #5 was on Sunday, well it was really fun! Polar bear is our trademark game I guess, we seem to enjoy the most of this simple game. Simple things make people happy I guess and I really enjoy simplicity.

Academic work is starting to pile up, and many people are starting to revive their ultra mugging skills that was so successful (unfortunately I do not have them). First time in my life I started doing some mugging when it's just TWO WEEKS into school, I guess JC life is really stressing me up. Nonetheless, I'm gonna give in everything I got to prove to some people that I'm capable of doing so! WAHAHAHA!

That was lame. :P

Tag Replies

Seowyee & Charlton : OG5 OG5 OG5 OG5!!!

Joey: Thx so much!! Hey u ran off to Hong Kong without me...

Bert: Thx! Bert are u like crazy over girls??

mushdad: since u started emoing :)

Song: I love to MOO!!!

EC: LAO REN!!!

Charmaine: haha i'm feeling better le! thx!!!

...

2008-01-13T12:34:00.000+08:00

I've been in a bad and emo mood for the past few days, so if I offended anyone I'm really sorry :(

The reason behind the bad mood is because I've been thinking a lot for the past few days, reflecting a lot. There's so many thoughts that I cannot blog it out, so you can roughly guess how bad my mood is. Things like my CT, my future, my past are some of the thoughts running through my mind every second.

Jumpstart ended yesterday, the long marathon of 8 days ended. Before orientation, I was complaining about the ridiculous length of orientation, but now that it has ended, I really hope the whole orientation can restart again. These are the moments of my life, times that I may never enjoy again, and it has just went by me so quickly.

OG outing #5 tomorrow. I really miss the times with my OG. I just couldn't get that feeling with my CT. My CT, sorry about that, but it really is the main reason of my bad mood. Really looking forward to tomorrow, a time where I can really feel happy.

Tag Replies

Charmaine: Haha, i'm not joining basketball anymore. Slacking :) Lol, I cannot find gf one lah... I won't forget you peeps one! :)

Joey: Thanks a lot ah ma! Sorry sia, I'm not that happy person that I was now, that happy person in me went for holidays, not sure when he will be back :(

Bert: You mean I was not matured enough? :D

Seowyee: Hello seowyee! I miss OG 5!!

Weini: Haha, okok I will link you :)

Life moves on...

2008-01-10T13:30:00.000+08:00

Time passed really quickly, my short time with OG 5 has ended with everyone of us splitting into our own CTs. Many of us are disappointed with their CTs, we complained, we "emo-ed", but I guess we have to accept the fact that life has to go on and we have to be optimistic with our class. As Qin Sheng said, the time we had may have ended, but the spirit of 08og5 will live on forever!

CCA Exhibition is today and after going through the whole day, I'm still at lost of which cca to join. I've listed down several possible options:

OAC- Outdoor Activities Club! I was deeply interested in it at the beginning, but the interest is starting to go away now. Expeditions are self-initiated, which means if no one initiates, there will be nothing on. XD
Interact Club- Meaningful cca, definitely an option for me. Requires commitment and responsibility, so should not be an option for 2nd cca.
Huang Cheng- Annual Traditional Drama, requires heavy commitment for 3 months. Well, I won't act, so if I join, most probably it will be for backstage.
Student's Council- Okay, I know this may sound crazy, but I'm seriously thinking about it. It will make extremely busy and stressed, but I really want to give it a try.

I guess I'll first decide on a cca first, whether I'll join council... well I'll leave that to more consideration. CT Games tmr! I don't know what will happen, my CT... haix, I shall not think too much for now. I'll concentrate on my studies and my cca, and see how the next two years will develop...

P.S. OG 5 I miss you peeps... :'(

OG 5

2008-01-06T16:08:00.000+08:00

OG 5 rocks the world! I'm proud to be part of this wonderful group! Orientation has been crazily fun, well due to OG 5! We may not be good in games, but we are certainly the most bonded and high group! :D

Just returned from OG 5's second outing! Went to esplanade for games and chit chat, had dinner at Suntec, take pictures, basically just having a great time together as a group. It's our last few days together as a group and we really wanna cherish all the moments we got :).

Ok, it's late. I shall blog more about orientation next time. OG5 all the way!!!

Orientation

2008-01-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

First day of school today! The day started lousily, but luckily it ended on a pretty high note.

SUPER disgusting traffic jam this morning! Have you ever take 20 min to travel from KAP to Hci on a bus?? Ok, I was late, by 10 min, although the thing haven't started.

The whole thing started at 8am, with lectures all the way until 3pm. I was like "omg?". Duper boring lah! Listen to lots of things I've heard before, high school guys got scolded some more.

AH HAH! But it was all fun when orientation started! We met up with our OGL, Qin Sheng, den went for icebreakers. Everyone was cooperative, cheered loudly, played loudly, well all of us had a great time i think. I'm lucky I think, heard that some groups were boring. :D

Well, I think that's long. Gonna rest soon, tomorrow is another long day. :D

2008-01-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

Hey it's 40 min into 2008... so...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Ok, that was quite cool. Haha.

Year in Review: 2007

2008-01-01T14:13:00.000+08:00

2007 is almost over! What should I say? The year has gone by and as usual, there are both positive and negative parts of it, although I can say I'm quite lucky to complete the year happy and satisfied :). This year is the year which I experienced the most ups and downs in my life, most fulfilling year and most emotional year. Well, I shall now give a recap of what happened in this amazing 2007.

January
- The year began very brightly as usual and I was full of confidence in everything I do. The basketball team was full of hope, as we probably had the best team formed in Hwachong for many years and nationals were something that were definitely reachable. Studies were the same too, as I felt that I could finally put in effort to achieve the desired results.

February
- Emotions were pretty mixed this month, we were knocked out of the competition way before nationals due to several unexpected defeats. Although we held a proud record of winning 7 and losing only 2, it was still not enough for qualification for the nationals. However, the high moment of the month came when I score my first A1 for mathematics in my sec school life.

March - June
- A very depressing period, results were not up to standard, parents had to meet consortium head, failed HRP first submission, death of my uncle and many other things made me felt like giving up everything in the world I had. Only happy moments were probably those spent with the kids from Feiyue.

July - Sept
- It was probably the turning point of the year, after the disappointing and undeserving exit from the projects day, my results started climbing up, made several good friends, committed myself to everything I do.

October - Dec
- The high point of the year. Results released, although not the best, it was definitely a good results for myself and everyone else who supported me throughout these years. Ended my secondary school life with a bang, events such as batch dinner, ortus night were definitely memorable.

That was roughly what happened throughout the whole year, well of course I have many thanks to make. I wanna thank all the people who have helped me all year round, Feiyue and the gang for giving me such a wonderful experience, the basketball team which made my time in Hwachong so enjoyable. There are others of course, but there are just too much to make.

I've made many many mistakes this year, mistakes that I may never be able to correct or redeem. 教练，很对不起我们又辜负了你。三年的努力才让我们从一群不会篮球，没有团队精神的小孩，训练成一个真正的球队。但是，我们到最后还是落败了，真的很对不起你。
I have to admit I'm a very careless person in terms of friendship, I have never given my friends much priority in my life. It is a very BIG mistake and I have felt the consequences, I've probably lost a very very precious friendship.
I remember one of the new year resolution I made for 2007 was to commit in everything I do and I've failed to do so once again. HRP 2007 was a total disaster, no commitment, no effort, nothing.

Well, 2008 is round the corner and it will be a new beginning for me once again. Has everyone made their new year resolution? Well, it's my turn to do so now.

2008 New Year Resolution

Leave no regrets in Jc. Yes, I've made too many regrets, too many mistakes in my sec school life. I don't want this to happen anymore and will do my best in everything.
Make everyone around me happy! Haha, this never fails to make it to my resolution every year. Although I've not been very successful in 2007, I've certainly improved throughout the years and I shall continue to do that :D
Repair, renew friendships. I don't want to lose anymore friendships.
Less computer games. Yes, I mean it! :D
Save up more $$. Haha, I've spent too much in 2007.
Live healthy, eat healthy.
Complete J1 :DDD
Spend more time with my family and not with my room. Haha.

That's about all I have for 2008. 2008 is coming in ard 2 hours, well, I'll probably be back then. See you next year!

Jumpstart!

2007-12-30T09:53:00.000+08:00

Jumpstart! Yeah, this is the theme for the upcoming JC1 orientation which will last for 8 days. The OG list is out and I'm pleased to announce that I know none of the 26 other people in my group. Haha, I've no idea whether I should be happy or sad about it, happy that I can know more people, sad... well because I'm all alone in the group.

I've no idea what is going to happen next week, no idea of what cca to join, no idea of what kind of friends I will make, no idea of a lot of things. But I guess it's all part of life isn't it? One can never know what may happen the next moment, be it good or bad, we all have to face it. In 4 days time, I'm going to step into Hwachong with an open heart and enjoy the orientation. At least I'll try :P

我不能掌控人生，不能改变命运，但我一定要把这段路弄得多姿多彩。

2007-12-28T13:20:00.000+08:00

What a day! Today is the happiest day I had this holiday and I really enjoyed it! It was total fun at Eechu's house with most of my teammates and it was really great to end this year with such a fun time.

Sorry for the change in the blogskin again, I just realised that the previous one looks great on Firefox but ugly on Iexplorer, thus the change. But there's not much change actually, still simple and white, except this time there are dots all over the background.

6 days! The schedule posted on the school website is making me hoping that either school doesn't come or orientation ends on the first day. 8 days of orientation in total is crazy, I think I will really go mad. Argh..

2007-12-27T12:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Boxing Day!

Charmaine's Christmas Party last Sunday was great, even though we didn't know most of the people there, we had fun playing the 'game', watching dvds and having the gift exchange. Left quite late though, the gift exchange took up quite a lot of time, with weird forfeits in between the exchange.

Christmas' eve and Christmas Day was spent mostly with my family, having a mini party at home and going out to enjoy the festive season. Well, Vivocity was totally flooded with people during this festive season, I'll remember to stay at home next Christmas.

I've been going back to school frequently these past few weeks, going back for weights and cardio, and recently spending the whole morning just playing basketball with the team. We played from 8am to 1pm on Christmas Eve, although it was really tiring, it was really fun.

就快上高中了，很多中学时代享受的日子就快过去了，譬如与队友一起打球那么简单的一件事，可能以后也很难有机会了。大家，应该都会有新的朋友，自己的节目了吧！我不想想像未来会发生的事，我只想停留在现在，但我也知道这是不可能的，我必须前进，我不能不舍。不过我肯定，在将来的旅程中，我可以不时地回头看，看到的一定是我中学生涯美好的回忆。

School is reopening in 7 days, my pal - holiday is leaving me once again. 2008 here I come!

2007-12-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

13 days to 2nd January 2008. Holidays are ending. School is reopening.

I've been practically missing for the past 2 weeks, popping out in school thrice a week with eechu for weights, going out for a few times and spending the majority of the time staying at home. This holiday certainly isn't a bang like the previous one, not many meaningful things happening ard. Boo.

Recently chose my subject combis for next year, decided on History, Econs, Math, Literature. Haha that's first choice, second choice would be China Studies in Chinese for Lit. I'm throwing away all my sciences, so wish me good luck :D.

Christmas is coming, I wish it's not coming so soon... I still cannot believe that school is reopening in less than 2 weeks time, I still haven't prepared for it! Psychologically, mentally, whatever u can think of. :( In the past I have been hoping for the moment to come, now I'm dreading it. Lol.

2008 is coming, which means that 2007 is coming to an end. This has been a year of ups and downs, pretty happy I made out of it still alive. I'm probably gonna give a Year 2007 Review soon, maybe on the first day of 2008. After which, I will look forward to what I always say, a whole new beginning, a whole new chapter of my life, a whole new experience and a whole new challenge!

2007-12-08T14:55:00.000+08:00

Hey, sorry for the change in the blog address, I've always wanted to change the address, but couldn't find a suitable one. It's now called life-rewind, influenced by the mini 6a gathering yesterday with Mr Tay, it brought back really great memories that I wanna revisit. No I'm not gonna be emo or something this time. Big thanks to Evelyn for the photos =D
Group photo from last evening's gathering! Yes, as you can see, the only guys are Kenneth, Mr Tay and I. Most of the guys are either overseas or MIA, resulting in the number of gals overwhelming that of guys. 12:3. My math ain't that bad. Haha.

We had dinner at this restaurant called New York New York at City Link Mall, had a great time doing very simple things, chit chatting with Mr Tay and the rest, updating others on our lives after pri school, making jokes, etc. It's been a really long time, and it's really a pity that many of the guys and some of the girls couldn't make it. Let's hope someone else organise another gathering, hopefully by then more people can make it. Oh, we also had dessert at Gelare, where we had good laughs over a lame primary school joke, Mr Tay holding on to his "precious" photo. Oh thanks Mr Tay for the ice cream =D

Woots, a few months ago I was "emoing" over not meeting together again, and yesterday I had such a great time. See how things change unexpectedly. XD

Time flies

2007-11-30T19:38:00.000+08:00

I was looking at the calendar 5 minutes ago and realised that tomorrow is December 1st, which means only 1 month of holidays is left. I had this sudden worried feeling, worried of going to college, worried of moving into the next chapter of my life. The reason? I am having doubts of whether I can do well, or worse still, pass my college subjects. I don't want my wonderful dreams of college to be broken, I don't want to face reality.

Finally signed up for guitar lessons, which begins tomorrow. December will be the month that I finally do some meaningful things, beginning with the guitar lessons. Hopefully the rest of the month will pass by slowly, I really don't want to face college life.

2007-11-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

England should hire Jose Mourinho as their new manager.

Just returned from Ee Chu's house not long ago, feeling really bad now with this irritating flu that Zhao Rui spread to me. Argh.

It was quite an interesting day, well, the day began with me taking the LRT to Petir to meet up with the guys for basketball. When I reached, I was told to go to Bukit Panjang LRT, as our dear Eechu lost his wallet -_-"". Went all the way to Woodlands with him and couldn't find it. Lol.

In the end both of us didn't play any basketball and we went to his house to play his new xbox 360. Lol, ended catching Zhao Rui's flu germs there, and here I am sneezing away. =D

Well, nothing much to blog here, so decided to recommend a song =D Jay Chou's new song in his latest album, a very meaningful song...

我不配
作词：方文山　作曲：周杰伦

这街上太拥挤　太多人有秘密　玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪　在还原那场雨　这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　又斑驳了几句　剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　隔遥远的距离　感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　你却微笑的离我而去

＃这感觉　已经不对　我努力在挽回
　一些些　应该体贴的感觉　我没给
　你嘟嘴　许的愿望很卑微　在妥协
　是我忽略　你不过要人陪

＊这感觉　已经不对　我最后才了解
　一页页　不忍翻阅的情节　你好累
　你默背　为我掉过几次泪　多憔悴
　而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

Repeat all once

Repeat ＃,＊

2007-11-22T13:53:00.000+08:00

Changi Airport's new Terminal 3 is simply gorgeous! Went to the open house on Sunday and was amazed by the 1 billion plus project. Simply incredible.

Just returned from Charmaine's chalet this morning, well, the chalet was quite okay, and the 5 hours straight of poker card games from 2 am to 7 am was a new experience. =D Cycling in heavy rain was another crazy experience, bbq at 12 am was insane too =D

My econs textbook is still left at page 2, guitar lessons are still waiting for me to sign up, yet to meet any primary school friends after that IKEA trip. Well, that pretty sums up what I have been doing since the last post, which is.... NOTHING! The holidays gets shorter, so do my enthusiasm for all the great plans I had when holidays just began. Well, that's just me =)

I have officially given up any hopes of making to the college basketball team, given up on the thing that has made me grown up so much. It's not because college training is crazily intensive, it's not because I couldn't handle it, it's just that it's time to move on.

Well, a month of holidays have passed without many noticing, after the next month, a whole new challenge awaits us...

2007-11-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

Once again, it has been weeks since I last blogged. Well, I admit I can't really maintain a blog, but it really takes me quite some time before I know what to blog. I don't want my blog to be just a place to narrate my daily happenings, but a place where I can express myself whenever I want.

After the all those crap above, well since the last post until now, the situation with me hasn't changed much. I'm just staying at home helping out with housework, go jogging every morning, play some games. Oh ya, I started reading my cousin's Economics Textbook. Lol.

Went to Ikea with mum yesterday to do some shopping and happened to meet Alvyn and Kenneth there. It was a surprise, didn't expect to meet any friends at IKEA. Lol, they happened to be shopping for a present ( at IKEA??). I was happy to see them though, as I've been thinking to ask them out for weeks already right after holidays started.

Finally some interesting stuffs coming up for me in the next few weeks. Well, here's what's gonna happen.

18/11/2007 - Basketball with Pri sch gang! Haha, Akash brought up the idea of playing basketball together. It has been years since we last do that, during secondary 1 we practically played every weekend together.
20/11/2007 - Charmaine the dino's chalet at downtown east. I couldn't stay over for her chalet this time round, so I'm just going for the day with the most events :D
This week or next week, I'm gonna sign up for my guitar lessons!
Possible Lan trip with pri sch friends??

I should be sleeping soon ( although i sort of told kt 1 hour ago that I'm gonna sleep), gonna wake up early tomorrow for the jog. I probably won't blog for a week (as usual) and it's not because I'm lazy. There's just nothing to blog about! :D

2007-11-02T19:20:00.001+08:00

More photos from batch dinner. Time passes really quickly, it has been 2 weeks since the memorable batch dinner. I shall not be sentimental again, all Zhi Bin's fault.

Holidays, a period of time where people rest their tired body and soul to prepare for challenges ahead. Holidays, for children and teenagers, is a period of time where they throw away their studies for pure enjoyment and fun. I tired of holidays. Haha. Holidays have not been the same since last year, not as fun and relaxing as it should be. It has become tiring, events just repeats itself everyday, I'm tired. This holiday isn't like the previous one when I had commitment with Fei Yue, this time I have nothing much to do. UNLESS I find a job. Yes, that is UNLESS.

I'm stuck in Singapore for this holidays again. Stupid eechu and gwen are going to Japan. Yes, JAPAN! Tag's going USA, Qingyang, Eehong and Haocheng are in Aussie, Yew wei's in India, Zhaorui's going to Taiwan next month i think, Kaiting's going to Korea. Bleah.... oh ya... Joey's stuck in Singapore. Haha...

Sorry for that random part above, I'm just too bored. Haha, someone help me find a job or something? =D

Graduation

2007-10-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

I guessed many of us did not realise that last friday was the final day of our high school life, at least at that moment. I was one of them, all I thought was that another of Ngmy chinese lessons is over and I get to enjoy the weekend ahead. What I did when the clock struck half past three was to sling my bag over my shoulder and walked out of class, just like everyday. I never realised that it was the last time I will ever get to do that in 4L.

I've been thinking, I've been reflecting, about the many little things that happened in my four years in high school. I remember those mornings I walk up that famous slope of Hwachong to class, I remember the first time I walk up that slope vowing to leave a legacy behind in Hwachong, only to walk up the slope the last time last week still the same old me. I also remember how I struggle through my academics ever since the first paper that I ever taken, only to survive over and over again, well mostly due to luck and kindness from the teachers. I remember a lot of things, too much that I didn't notice.

Thinking about graduation, I had a couple of them in my life, but none of it as sentimental as this one. Kindergarten, I was too young to know that memories will be lost after graduation. Primary School, I was too excited about making it to secondary school and had that fat hope that friendship will never change after I go to secondary school. It's pretty ironic though, although being promoted to college isn't exactly graduation, it is one that most of my peers and I are feeling sad over. Maybe it's because everyone of us are more mature now, or friendships are stronger now, it's probably the mixture of both. Imagine what will happen during college graduation, when everyone of us will truely be separated. Imagine.

Just a few days into holidays and I'm beginning to dread it and wish that college will never come. I just hope I can retrieve those precious amount of time I wasted in high school and use it wisely... I wish...

2007-10-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

Exams are over, batch dinner is over, secondary school life is finishing too. Hey guys I'm back after like... how long? Going for Ortus night soon, in around another 15 minutes or so. It has been a crazy period for me, 2 months of endless mugging and I'm proud to say that i make it to JC! Cheers! Received results today, MSG is 2.67. Believe it or not, this is the best result i ever received. Haha.

Tommorrow is probably the last day of Secondary School life for me, it's pretty shocking to realise it. My sis said that she couldn't believe that four years have passed so quickly and unknowingly I'm gonna leave high school for college next year! It's pretty ironic though, for the past 4 years I've been complaining about my school, only until the last few weeks that I truely appreciate being here and being part of the school's history. Now I will really say that I proud to be a Hwachongian. Yes, after 4 years =D

Okay, that's all for now. I'm going for Ortus night in 5 min. I love Hwachong!

2007-09-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

6A'03 photo! Taken on 31st August 2007. Well, this is probably the last photo that we will ever take together. Haiz.

This is also probably the last post b4 EOYS. Just 12 more days to English Paper 1 & 2! Time really flies when you try to mug, I've been mugging for 2 weeks now but it still seems that I got a lot more to go. Never mind, I shall really try my best, not aiming for the OSA anymore, it seems quite impossible now.

I'll be back here on the 11th of Oct! I promise! That's the end of exams. I must survive!

Okay, some key dates after exams:

18th Oct 2007 - Batch Dinner at Hilton Orchard
30th/31st Oct 2007 - Higher Chinese O' Levels

Batch Dinner! It's really ex lah, $70. But it's like the "graduation" for the '04 batch. Haha, although I've been complaining about my school for like 4 years already, I will still miss my friends here. Not that I won't see them anymore, but we won't be as close as we are now. Most of us will be in different classes, different faculties, and if i take the arts stream then even lesser of my classmates will be in the same class as me. Well, the last month in high school section, I must really enjoy more time here (Well, i don't mean enjoy by mugging)

HOWEVER, I'm really looking forward to this coming holidays! After a disappointing 4 years, I'm getting a new lease of life! Haha, everything will start from zero in JC, I guess i will take studies more seriously bah. Maybe aim for a scholarship or something, grab more opportunities for attachment or stuffs like this. I've been letting all these opportunities off during my past 4 years, like not trying out for the council, not going for MUNs etc.

Going to work this holidays! I'm definitely going to get some work experience this holidays, maybe go give out pamphlets or something? Haha. Oh, I'm also going for guitar classes these holidays, going for chalets, going to have fun! Ever since last June, I've learn not to waste time doing useless stuffs like playing games from 8am to 8 pm, nor just sit there and let life slip away. I've wasted 16 years of my life, and i certainly do not want to waste another 16 years.

P.S: I shall not listen to what Ms Lim says about we wasting time on the little things in life. I think that we should make an effort in enjoying these little things in life.

歌曲：最重要的小事

歌手：五月天 专辑：为爱而生

曲:玛莎词:阿信

我走过动荡日子
追过梦的放肆
穿过多少生死
却假装若无其事
穿过半个城市
只想看你样子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事
世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事

我就算壮烈前世
征服滚滚乱世
万人为我写诗
而幸福却是此时
静静帮你提著
哈罗凯蒂袋子
这一刻最重要的事
是属於你最小的事
世界纷纷扰扰喧喧闹闹
什黱是真实
为你跌跌撞撞傻傻笑笑
买一杯果汁
就算庸庸碌碌匆匆忙忙
活过一辈子
也要分分秒秒年年日日
全心守护你
最小的事
最重要的事

你笑得像个孩子
每个平凡小事
变成永恒故事

2007-09-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

First day of September holidays! I've finally started to revise for EOYS!

From today onwards, it will be mug, mug and mug all the way till Higher Chinese O' levels ends. That is like... another 2 months? After that, if i don't need to take re-exam, it will be fun, fun and fun all the way!! But now, stop dreaming and mug.

Lol, my sis reckons i look like this. Funny ar?

2007-09-02T11:25:00.000+08:00

Went blog surfing this afternoon and saw this rather meaning post from Yujie. Well this is part of it.

"ever heard of the sims? it's a computer game in which you are able to control the lives of people, and what i want to point out is that when something significant happens, like when a character in the game gets married or dies, a snapshot is taken and it's stored in the photo album."

Life is really about memories, memories are a very important part of each and everyone's life. I truly understand the meaning of this, especially after yesterday's trip back to primary school, the place where i once called home.

Hard to believe, but I've graduated from cckps for 4 years already. Yesterday was teachers' day celebration, so as usual I went back there to wish Zls a happy teachers' day and most importantly, meet up with my once really good friends. I know i say this every year when i go back to cckps, but almost everyone changed in one way or another (well you can count me out). Long gone were the playful and mischievous faces during primary school life, everyone (i think) has grown a sense of maturity in them. A walk around the school campus brings back lots of memories, memories that may be gone sooner or later.

Although many of the 6A'03 were missing, a handful of us still turned up. Well, this may well be our last year going back to Cckps, as next year everyone will move on to JC and returning to primary school seems impossible. The way we sat together to play cards, how the guys and the guys crowd together in their own groups and having a chat, the way we ran away when the security guard chase us away for playing soccer in forbidden area and many more, all this memories will be gone before i even know it. How i wished more people went back to cckps yesterday... some of them i may not see them for a lifetime after yesterday.

On a brighter note, I've decided that I shall start to capture memories of my life down, be it in photos, videos or any other things, as I've now known the importance of memories. I am already losing memories of my precious primary school life, I don't want to lose memories of my lifetime.

Well here's a start, some photos of 4L'07! Best class ever! (if you count 6A'03 out)

Presenting to you 4L'07! This is going to be our last 2 months together as a class. 2 years of fantastic time is soon gone. Although the 'HAOS' and other noisy sounds our class can make is very disturbing, i think i will never forget them. Let us make an effort to make our “少年” a memorable one!

歌手：光良 专集：童话

你又想起某个夏天

热闹海岸线

记忆中的那个少年

骄傲的宣言

伸出双手就能拥抱全世界

相信所有的梦想一定会实现

一切看起来都不会太遥远

转眼之间过了几年

轻浮的语言都已经慢慢沉淀

即使难免会变得更加洗练

我们不曾妥协

那是我们都回不去的从前

幸好还可以坚持当时的信念

世界尝试改变

当初的那个少年

那是我们都回不去的从前

当你站在那个夏天的海岸线

我们还是心里面

那个偏执的少年

2007-08-14T02:13:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging! Today marks the official end to Hwachong Term 3 tests series! (Chinese Common Test is not counted. Physics SPA too) Haha, got 17/20 for history. Miracle.

National day holidays were just slack, slack and more slack. The only interesting thing i went was at Charmaine and Joey's church, the Black & White thingy. Lol, had some fun singing christian songs there, although i dont really understand them. But well, it is always good to understand other religions =D

Here's some pics!

2007-07-31T17:17:00.000+08:00

Miracle has just happened. Lol!

Slacking at Qing Yang's house now. Pretty lame, came here to study for tomorrow's English Common Test, didn't really study much lah. Helped QY create a blog instead... Help him promote la... go his blog tag everyone!

Wangwy's last period today, she's like going to Thailand to teach after torturing us for the past seven months. Irresponsible, but still a good thing for us though, it has been a hell of seven months under her. The class sang some lame songs and gave her a farewell card, she looked so happy? Spastic.

Wee, that's all i guess, gonna go home and mug more! HAHA.

P.S I hate school

2007-07-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

Tests, tests, tests, tests......

Welcome to the Annual Hwa Chong Tests Period. You are bound to face copious amount of stress each time although you feel like slacking everytime.

Haha, that was lame, but tests are really just around the corner. Don't know how I am gonna survive the next few weeks, if you happen to see me blogging sometime next week, I probably have just pulled off some miracle. =D

2007-07-18T11:37:00.000+08:00

What on earth is Steven Su doing? Where are the Projects Day results???

I haven't been blogging much these days, as i have said, school is getting really boring. It has been the same old thing since the start of term 4, or should i say the start of P1. Lol.

Went to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix with my sis last night. Felt that the movie was okay, probably due to the fact that i've only just starting reading the book. Emma Watson is pretty as usual, Luna Lovegood is cute! Haha, the way she acts, the way she speaks is so funny. Oh ya, Ginny is IMBA. Haha.

By the way, I've just changed that boring blogskin i had, from a light one to a dark one. Nice right? Haha...

2007-07-11T13:04:00.000+08:00

Projects Day Semi Finals is over!! Haha, was feeling so stressed up by it over the past few days, and now it is finalli over. Yeah!

Played basketball the whole afternoon after projects day, played as normal again loh, nothing special... LOL

Actually nothing much to blog about when school reopens. Nothing much realli happens. Study, do hw, sleep, study... This cycle goes on until holidays. Bleah, thats why i HATE school. Weee..

2007-07-08T13:13:00.000+08:00

Just realised i looked realli disgusting during the whole hainan thingy... Bleah...

2007-07-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

It's still raining!! Haha, first time in so many days that the weather is cooling, although the basketball game was sacrificed for it, I'm feeling so happy now =D

Going to Ec's house again later to finish up our PW. Projects day is on Tuesday, hopefully we can make it pass the semis. Haha...

Nothing much to post nowadays, school = boring life. Haha, but we went back to Feiyue on thurs! Haha, the kids still rmb us! (LOL!) Haha, Im definitely going back during the dec holidays!! =D

My dad made a very cool comment recently:

Dad:" Eh son, Kopitiam should award u a gold medal."
Me:" Ar? Why?"
Dad:" For eating almost everyday there!"
Me:" -_-'''' "

Ok, i'm going lot one first b4 going Ec house. Bleah...

Oh ya! Today's Earth Day! (something like that?) 7/7/07! Duper Cool!

2007-07-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

For some unknown reason, I've been feeling very lackadaisical today, stoned during every lesson today, and doing no work since i reach home. Haha.

I scored a wonderful mark for my math test! 24%!! Haha, lowest i've ever got, but the test was just... disgusting... I lost my "just one page worksheet" and i lost my marks too..

A lot of work left to do, and I just hope that i will feel refreshed and ready to go tmr. ==""

<-- Ah niu(my bro) & Ah dou. Courtesy of Ah ma's great creative mind. =D

2007-07-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

Youth Day holiday today!! Haha, had another fruitful day today, another holiday that i didn't waste.

Went to bpcc to play basketball again. Charmaine, Joey and Adelbert joined us this morning. Charmaine was like screaming throughout the whole thing lah! Haha.

Went KAP mugging again in the afternoon with Qy, zr, Charmaine, Joey, Ec and Bert. Managed to complete my exercise 19C and familiarise myself with Vectors. Tried to do some physics, but was knocked out by the first few questions =D

Went BPP for dinner AGAIN!! Haha, i counted, i had went BPP to eat for 13 times during the last 1 month. HAHA!!

School again tmr. I just hate going to school now. My school is just a sucky place. :(

<-- Joey Ah Ma

<-- Bought this bean thingy from Mr Bean for my mum. Joey copied me and bought the same thing.... Haha..

2007-06-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful day today! Haha...

Just returned home from dinner, quite tired but happy, achieved quite a lot today =D

Early in the morning at around 7.40am, i was stoning beside the coffeeshop in petir, waiting for qy and zr to come... wait wait wait... 20min later.. they arrived =) Haha, all in my life i have been waiting for latecomers, haha..

Played bball at bukit panjang cc. FUN! Own zr and qy in "horse". Haha, sorry lah, cos i everytime nothing to do like to do all those kind of weird stunt one. After that played ball with people i dunno, but it was still quite fun though. Did my usual stuff, taking rebounds, shooting a couple of balls. Quite happy with my performance over the last 2 days =D

At ard 11am chiong back home, bathe and went out to lot one to meet Joey and Eechu to go to KAP to study. Haha, had a great time there, did PW, math and some history there. Haha, thanks Joey for helping me solve those vectors questions =D my math seriously cant make it.

Zhaorui suggested LAN, so the 6 of us went to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre to play LAN. FUN again! Haha =D

Well, bpp seems to be my home now, went there for dinner again! Went to kopitiam with Charmaine and Joey to have dinner, and had a nice chat over there =)

Sat on a retro bus just now! Took 975 and the bus is like super old? Haha here's some pics =D

Haha, very retro right? That kind of sliding door.. Haha...

2007-06-29T15:30:00.000+08:00

Yes, i know that it is 12.30 am now and i should be well asleep in my bed, but i just managed to chiong through my history essay plan and my SRQ. Haha.. i damn qiang!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!! Haha 87 years old le! What an achievement =D

nothing to blog le lah =D tmr go ec's house to do project. Not the ec house cut hair one =D is eechu's hse... HAHAHA

2007-06-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

Around 12 more hours before the commence of the deadly math test ... yea...

School is just getting boring, every lesson seems so dull. Literature today was okay (however, as it was the first lesson, i was still half asleep). Math came after that, vectors are just so sian... The best subject to come after that is chemistry, with chewty rambling on more and more stuff while i spent the time stoning. Physics practical was OKAY, tedious work that woke me up a little. Suprisingly, the only lesson that i was truely awake was CHINESE, when the great chinese tcher of mine made us write compo... Yea..

If anyone's gonna ask me to pick a word to describe my life now, "Busy" is the only word that i can find.

Tomorrow --- Math Test, Exercise 19B, Meet Ms Sim, Qingyang's house for ACE
Thursday --- PW, HRP, Chinese Articles, Chinese Compo, English Ethnical Journal
Friday --- EC's house for PW
Saturday --- KAP -> Mugging + PW + NYAA
Sunday --- Charmaiine's Church?? , Family Day, Mugging, HRP
Monday (Youth Day) --- PW

Okay, that's all i know is coming up. Yea, my life rocks =D

2007-06-26T16:33:00.000+08:00

You Should Drive a BMW

Refined and classy, you want a car that looks rich... and goes fast!

What Sports Car Should You Drive?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together.
Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination.
There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language.
You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands).

You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

2007-06-26T10:01:00.000+08:00

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

Your Life Is Worth...

$793,500

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You Are "Wow"!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatjapanesesmileyareyouquiz/">What Japanese Smiley Are You?

Math test is really killing me, and i dunno what to do on wednesday... yea...

2007-06-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

Term 3 officially begins in ard 11 hrs, and it will be a mugging marathon from then all the way till end-of-years. I hate it.

The start of a new tern signals to an end to yet another holiday, which has undoubtly been ranked at the top of the best holidays i ever had.

If you include the days after term 2 common tests as holidays, the first event that came by is the sec 4 overseas camp. My first ever plane ride! (Haha Joey) Although it was not a desirable airline and a less desirable destination, it was definitely a great experience. Away from home the longest i ever had, i could say i enjoyed the whole trip pretty much =D

Ortus chalet was another highlight, well not actually. Other than zhuo yan's marathon barbequeing, chingto & libo spamming of xbox 360, nothing significant actually happened =D

1st week of holidays was usual for me: Basketball, comp, more basketball, more comp...

2nd week came, and i never thought i will have this kind of experience =D Initially i volunteered as a "part-time" helper to the CIP grp, but i turned out to be one of the most devoted volunteers :P First ever holiday that i really had fun, really...

After all the rambling, it is time to turn to my bag and thinking about what to pack for tmr.....

2007-06-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

Cats are cute, aren't they? Haha, thx joey for the pix =D